I'm pissed

for not being able to eat 'normal' stuff

I'm pissed

for being 'indifferent' from others

I'm pissed

for being fat and being criticized by others

I'm pissed

for being fat and being criticized by others and the people who I deemed as 'godly'










I disliked myself

But came to accept myself

I thought of dying

To end things once and for all

I threw away these thoughts

When Firewire came about

I began to live happily

At least that's what I thought so

But no

The past came back to haunt

Struck me down

I struggled to get up

But didn't make it

I threw the mask away

And slumped into my seat

Comfortable in my own world

In my own room

Mixture of feelings engulfed me

Feeling so confused that I don't know what to do

To persevere in doing what I deem right?

Or was I wrong from the very beginning?

This is the question

Which I longed for the answer

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